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ok, finally done with the tweaking... esp wif things i dun even understand, like HTML. damn i should'v paid a wee bit more attention during class... den i probably wun be so FREAKING fustrated...
i got that epiphone les paul!! cool... but i haven gotten the amp so its gonna sit dere doing nothing for e next 2 weeks.... anyone got a good amp 2 recommend?
wad the heck is all that ruckus about Dawn Yeo's plastic sugery? i mean, wad does ANYTHING she wanna do haf 2 do wif the WHOLE BLOODY COUNTRY? she's chio and all, but come on, its juz a blog... juz like the daughter of some Hong Kong businessman was on the tabloids for revealing one ordinary bra strap! *dotz* dun those reporters go anywhere near tsim sha tsui or orchard road? itz flesh parade man... some gers there make dirty old men blush... blah!purveyors of filth... those nosey, pathetic excuse of reporters i mean.
i puked today. twice. i dun think its my body man... my body is fine. i think. i think its because i have been lonely for 2 long... too, too long... 20 years too long man... i cant remember when anyone gave me a hug juz for being me... hah! i wish... ain't felt the simple warmth of someone leaning against me for as long as i can remember... wish i can be warm...
there's a chinese saying "envy not the immortals but envy the lovebirds"... how true... everywhere i go couples fill the streets... every alley, every bus, everywhere...i see them holding hands n i get so sad i rue the day i was born... haha... esp when i see the girl i love, the girl i wud DIE for, ignoring my presence n existance, laughing n playing with every1 else... well the feeling is intensified hundredfold... think thats y my heart is in 3,079,986 pieces... its causing my body 2 reject itself 2... bloody hell... wish i have an angel 2 hold...
"hold me now, i'm 6 feet from the edge and i'm thinking mayb 6 feet ain't so far down"haha... thats about wad im feeling... if no1 is gonna hold me back, im going over the edge...
short of this, God really blessed me lots... all my probs at work miraculously disappear when i prayed... key word being when... i should remember 2 do so more man... i have all i need... all i wan... except 4 the kinda warmth that a mere blanket cant provide... heh... Lord, how long must i wait?
*wads mine is mine... wads not will never be... will she ever see my love?
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